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Ally Ally Apathy

and other mixed up fables


sick and interesting
fast night
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 I decided after this weekend of being sick, I need a new start.  A real new start.  I haven't written since the turn of the century or so it feels.  I deleted all my old entries except for one.  I've never posted pics on here so this isn't the best way to start, but this is me, all sick and haggard feeling. I promise I'm cuter when I don't have bags under my eyes, no makeup, and the plague.  I figured most literature would be more exciting with pictures.  Note the highlight of this picture.  The heftiest ring you have ever seen. It was my grandmother's, custom made from her home country of Lithuania.  That ring is going to be on me when I die.
 


muse
fast night
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You make me remember the person I wanted to be
So quickly how I remember that I am not
I am no where close to what I wanted
I question if I know what I want

I catch myself floating off to places I'll never go and things I'll never see
Rehearsing in my mind what I would say to you
I guess I get carried away because you like me more everytime we talk
You tell me I'm pretty and you mean it.
The alarm clock reminds me that I'm all alone

I hate that I know what I want, because what I want doesn't exist
The person who said it is better to have loved and lost than never to never love at all, never knew what I knew
I hate that the love that I want, isn't even real.. you aren't even real

I wish that I didn't know love, it's so much easier that way
Then I would never know what I was missing
I think maybe if I didn't hurt, I'd be more complete
We both know that's not possible

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